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I didn’t get a chance to write yesterday. Its alright since I didn’t have much to say. I don’t honestly have much to say today either.

It is so peaceful here. Some of it by choice, some by location and some not by choice. I am trying to accept the not by choice peace as a gift, not a trial.

There is no internet access here. Usually not a problem for me since I have a Blackberry. The problem is I don’t have cell phone service either. (Can you hear me now? No Verizon, I can’t.) This means I cannot tether my phone to my computer as a modem. No internet access, period. Which isn’t entirely true. If I sit in the yard, very back of the yard I can get reception on my phone. I had it for a few moments earlier today while I was sitting here at the dining room table so at least I managed to get my emails.

It is a test of a statement I made to a friend, “I would like to not be so dependent on my cell phone and computer.” I think I am passing the test since I haven’t started drinking, cussed out the neighbors or kicked the dog. I also haven’t called the local cable company about getting internet.

Not having cell phone service has been nice. If there are problems back in MS I don’t know about it and everyone will handle them. I can’t get the random cryptic Facebook posts from my kids that make me worry. I also haven’t been on Facebook instead of writing or taking care of other things. I figure my crops dying on Farmville isn’t really a crime since they really aren’t crops and I’m really not wasting money because its really not real.

I have, however, spent a lot time outdoors enjoying the property, walking Mitzi (the puppy), and allowing myself to continue to let go of the past so I can focus on the future. My future.

I have even taken the time to write a dear friend up North an actual hand written letter (and…amazingly enough it is legible!). I also started 3 articles that I plan to finish this week. Starting them was the hard part, finishing them will just take a little time for me to complete and edit them.

I am grateful that once on the main road I do have cell phone service, and internet on my phone. I am directionally challenged. Plain and simple. I HAVE to have access to my GPS and navigation system or there is no way I will find my way around here or my way back again. Which will be nice when I drive into town to upload this post so I can find my way back home again.