Blah, Blah, Bleh, Bleh, Bleck

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Okay, so I have no clue what bleck means but it fits my mood.

Blah, blah, blah…

Yep, that’s all I have done all day is talk, talk and talk some more. I am a mobile consultant. That’s what I do, consult. This means I listen and talk, talk and listen. Ask questions, answer questions and consult according the information gathered. Solve problems or give the customers some possible actions they can take to get solutions to carrier and/or phone issues.

I love my job. With.A.Passion.

I do a lot of thinking, too. A lot LOT of thinking. Not to the point where I am suffering from “brain burn”, just tired when I get off work and would like to do some mindless things. Things like eating, watching some boob tube and playing some games on the computer. Even just staring at the wall.

Mind like water.

Things that don’t require me to analyze a situation, do math in my head or remind myself to sit/stand up straight. Just for a little bit, that’s all I ask.

The ride home I am usually talking to myself. Unloading the day, emptying myself of phone plans, coverage maps and phone accessories. I want to come home and just not do anything.

Never happens.

Bleh, bleh, bleh…

I come home to a drunk that acts like a needy two year old, four year old – hell, a needy kid. An attention whore from hell. Granted, I still have a smile on my face and bounce in my step since it is my personality, especially when I am amazed at how much I love what I do and how much I love life.

When I get home, I can’t talk about how neat my day was, or how busy my day was or how I landed the perfect sale where the customer got exactly what they wanted/needed without any hitches. My supervisors get wind of this stuff asap and within a few minutes I am approached with a smile and a congratulations for an awesome job well done.

Not just for the sale (of course we need to sell or there is no income for the department which in turn means no jobs for any of us) but the fact that I covered every available option for the customer so they could make informed choices and be satisfied with their purchase.

Satisfied and happy customers. That is the goal.

I know that having a friend pass away is something to be dealt with, hopefully not alone.

I want to be there for my roomie when things go perpendicular when they were horizontal. However, it is not easy when I can’t even being to grasp what is really the problem. Is it the death? Is it the fact that roomie hasn’t been doing what he is suppose to do around here to keep the roof over our heads? Am I actually a problem that needs to go somewhere else?

When depression meets ADD – well, it isn’t a pretty sight. Toss in alcohol and its even more confusing, frustrating and well, just reinforces that although I don’t want to be alone I would like to be left alone. Just for a little bit.

I also have trouble figuring out what is real and what is imagined in his inebriated mind. I can’t deny that occasionally I have slight panic attacks wondering if we’ve been kicked out or if he just wants to move and get out from under this obligation of rent free for property management deal.

Drama king or would that be King Drama. Amazing how some things that are so minor can be made out to be so major, traumatic or life threatening.

He says that he can’t stand being under someone else’s thumb all the time. I know the feeling. Oh boy, do I know the feeling.

Now that I’ve spent two hours in the land of G Oz I have finally gained understanding that we have not been kicked out and that he is just drunk, tired and feeling overwhelming guilt at not stepping up to the plate regarding the duties that he has agreed to with the property owner.

Bleh.

Almost enough to knock this smile off my face, the patience out of my heart and the bounce out of my step. Almost…

I am finally unwinding. I am finally getting this crick I’ve had in my neck all day worked out, and its quiet in here other than G’s snoring. Soothing sound to me because it means he is finally sound asleep and I can write this, read a little and possible get my crops farmed on Farmville before they die.

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It has been a good day. I am getting better at meeting my customers needs and wants. Handling things on my own at work with more ease. Understanding cell phones and cell phones more and more every day. I also get to meet such a wide variety of people every day. I learn so much from each and every one of them.

My immediate bills are paid, my gas tank is fuel, I have a full belly and a smile on my face. I even have a little cash left to make sure that there is fuel in my tank and for those little incidentals that always manage to pop up.

My goal for this rest of this month (3in30 Goals) is to continue to progress in my job skills, not spend money on foolish things and to keep a healthy respect for myself. This means that I will thrive in the work place, not have to panic when financial things pop up and wear a sincere smile on my face all the time. okay, maybe not while I’m sleeping – but who knows, it could happen then too!